Be Still, My Soul

I spent last Friday night in the Las Vegas.
This Friday night I’m in Chicago.
Next Friday night I’ll be in California (Lord willing).
The Friday after that I’ll be in Longmont, Colorado (again, Lord willing).

For all of these places and the situations they represent, I am blessed. But right now, in the middle, I’m lost in the confusion of boxes and boarding passes and goodbyes.

You’d think I’d be used to it by now: the imminent moving, perpetual transition, constant change, a reality I am well acquainted with. But I am not.

I feel the tension in my shortened breaths. When will I finally land?
I see the weariness  in my tired eyes. Is there a place to rest my bones?

Perhaps it’s more difficult to ignore the chronic sense of being a wanderer,
when your physical reality matches the steady, same feelings.

This May, they are one in the same.
So I’ll pack the suitcases again, gathering notes and shoes and papers and strength to keep walking, and thank God for the change in scenery.
I’ll turn of the computer, and visit the roof as often as needed.
I’ll fill the storage bins, buy the tickets, and take it one thing at a time.
One conversation at a time,
one morning at a time,
one breath at a time.

In Vegas, Jesus.
In Chicago, Jesus.
In California, Jesus.
In Colorado, Jesus.

Be still my soul, the Lord is on your side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He will remain.

Advertisements
This entry was posted in Thoughts. Bookmark the permalink.

3 Responses to Be Still, My Soul

  1. Emily says:

    You put words to things so well. There is no rest when you are wandering, at least it is minimal. Living out of a backpack is a funny thing too.. and to think my wandering is just over a 20 minute drive or 40 minute bus ride, and to think you are wandering all over the country. I cannot imagine. Love love love. California will welcome you with love.

  2. kylielove says:

    Awe, thanks Em. I’m hoping for the day we find rest in wandering. Praise God that He is preparing an eternal home for us. I just get tired and weary here. Cannot wait to see you friend. Thank you for your comment. Love.

  3. Pingback: A Semester in Review | love, kylie

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s